the body of our sin Prt 2 by defconsmiley, literature
Literature
the body of our sin Prt 2
father I have sinned..
I stare upon my life's resignation
"I'm chambering a cartridge"
my hope remains an estimation
as my mind remains lethargic
as I walk through a sea of empty faces
I see the ones that are painted, emotions.
I curse the lies between the spaces
oh my hate devours skies and oceans
hmm..oh, "I'm chambering a cartridge"
I wonder how many times can I write that
how many times before it becomes sacrilege
how many before it becomes the coldest fact
I'm within these sea of faces
my finger sits alone on the trigger
I hope you'll pray for my last social graces
as the statue I am is an unmovable figure
I've chambered the
a coffin set in satin
my dreams will leap from coals
I will paint the sky that your wrapped in
and light your path with souls
you hang with such a grace
just out of reach of my outstretched palm
though you're miles in pace
your light, oh your light, keeps me calm.
you're my enigma dressed in gray
light from where light is suppressed
my queen of the dark, bane of the day
beat back the sun, fight back for the blessed.
I can take in your embrace
my skin gives away to your swoon
together we hide from the sun's noxious gaze
you ask what to do, just fly with the moon.
Mother of our destruction by defconsmiley, literature
Literature
Mother of our destruction
A vacation lobotomy
Screams fill my apathy
Please evacuate soul.
"See? No heart, just a hole."
If it weren't for this killing
The blood spilled and filling
A forgotten heretic's role.
Then your god would not grow.
This subjugation has fallen
Entertainment is calling
We're in need of more fools!
For they are ruling but ghouls!
Burn down their Olympus
The crown sits the fittest
We left the meager for most
And followed a ghost
We demanded this anger
Though we are still a stranger
Blood stained flags now fly the coast
We have bled dry our host
Our feet covered with dust
We breath in the thick rust
and cover our faces in shame.
As things are set in backwards motion
copper legs collapse in vain
a gale blows in to collapse the ocean
the world trembles in my shame
what have I wrought, to the sky I scream
praying and dancing for rain
the sorrow I've bought, all for a dream
as this silk rusts away into chain
there's aught feeling left, just cold soulless steel
these machines intertwine with my breath
they're just like me, they wish to feel
This skin, these bones, this theft.
the substance that is you
replace my blood, push on through
like a mainline to my heart
you'll bleed me till I'm blue.
You're my violence, you're my doubt
the feelings I learned to live without
can you inject yourself again?
now you're all I'm all about.
and you're my poison, you're my bane
my disease, living off my pain
so put your devices to my brain
till I'm sick of your tirade, so sick I've gone insane!
smash your reflections in my skin, keep bending i'll break
rip and tear my rib-cage fake a heart to take!
without you I'd be sane within
but I'd be dead my friend
so inject yourself, let me breath again.
These hallways are to easy to pace by defconsmiley, literature
Literature
These hallways are to easy to pace
reality becomes perception
deception has become perspective
I draw a line at introspective
been there done that
get creative
hypocritical, lacking effort
sleep deprived, grab a beverage
clean the house, write a line
draw another cool design
lay about, think of her
scream and shout, maybe curse
a godless shrine I've built to burn
lie awake, toss and turn
sick of love, high on pain
work's become a constant strain
mop the floors, clean the drain
living life against the grain
bite my nails, check my phone
wonder where shes all alone
write a line, rub my eyes
body says I'm sleep deprived
one more line, one more line
I tell you b
one day I'll build a net
big enough to skim a wave
catch empty prays and promises
we've lost along the way
one day I'll grab the sky
hang till my arms give out
where I land is where I lie
and I will do so without doubt
one day I'll sew together
every piece of grass I see
my kingdom all for something better
these endeavors are so naive
one day I'll learn to tie my shoes
or lose my two front teeth
eat all my food, grow bigger than you
get rid of this car seat
one day this playground will be gone
the chalk, the swings, the slide
all the things that I thought wrong
are now distant memories to rhyme
one day, they say, its far aw
heres 31 lines, and I cant change your mind by defconsmiley, literature
Literature
heres 31 lines, and I cant change your mind
what do you do when you start to feel empty?
hollow? we're ass backwards, we as in us
us as in them, them as in they
like night as in day
like straight as in gay
or take as in pay.
there's nothing left to say
we settled for this way?
can we even call ourselves our name?
human, hu-man, hu.. hu.. human?
the type of alienation we cant stand?
the type of gratification we demand
instant
constant
relevant
re-dun-dant
simplified and hypocritical
yet
over complicated and statistical?
let the over educated head you wish you had on a swivel
just bleed itself of ignorance. shrivel.
don't die, just deflate
like glide as in skate
or
Let me start over
is this what we amount to?
martyrs of a dead world left sacrifice to a destitute
where our childhoods have missed every ladder only attracted to the chutes
till we find rock bottom and decided to learn to tie our shoes.
did you do it because they told you to?
or where you tired of the playground tripping you?
or how you ran and lost a shoe
afraid one day they'd chastise you, tell you look what you have to lose
but its just a shoe kid, keep runnin
they want you to turn around, they want you to stay
first its read your books, do your chores, watch what you say
then its 10 and 2, look for schools,should have got goo
Remember my smile
tooth for tooth
the one I beamed at you
whenever I said I was going to be something someday
I remember yours, I thought you were happy with ME
F o r M e
but all you were doing was faking
But I'm better now
where are you? I can see what I am now.
how can you say you were better? all that I am and I gave
YOU
my heart?
Now I can see now you're nothing but a shadow of my past
and as the sun sets on an old life, I lay my head upon my pillow
k n o w i n g
you'll be cast away with the rest of the darkness
with the rest I left behind in my steps
It will hurt when I'm gone, I'm saying th
the body of our sin Prt 2 by defconsmiley, literature
Literature
the body of our sin Prt 2
father I have sinned..
I stare upon my life's resignation
"I'm chambering a cartridge"
my hope remains an estimation
as my mind remains lethargic
as I walk through a sea of empty faces
I see the ones that are painted, emotions.
I curse the lies between the spaces
oh my hate devours skies and oceans
hmm..oh, "I'm chambering a cartridge"
I wonder how many times can I write that
how many times before it becomes sacrilege
how many before it becomes the coldest fact
I'm within these sea of faces
my finger sits alone on the trigger
I hope you'll pray for my last social graces
as the statue I am is an unmovable figure
I've chambered the
a coffin set in satin
my dreams will leap from coals
I will paint the sky that your wrapped in
and light your path with souls
you hang with such a grace
just out of reach of my outstretched palm
though you're miles in pace
your light, oh your light, keeps me calm.
you're my enigma dressed in gray
light from where light is suppressed
my queen of the dark, bane of the day
beat back the sun, fight back for the blessed.
I can take in your embrace
my skin gives away to your swoon
together we hide from the sun's noxious gaze
you ask what to do, just fly with the moon.
Mother of our destruction by defconsmiley, literature
Literature
Mother of our destruction
A vacation lobotomy
Screams fill my apathy
Please evacuate soul.
"See? No heart, just a hole."
If it weren't for this killing
The blood spilled and filling
A forgotten heretic's role.
Then your god would not grow.
This subjugation has fallen
Entertainment is calling
We're in need of more fools!
For they are ruling but ghouls!
Burn down their Olympus
The crown sits the fittest
We left the meager for most
And followed a ghost
We demanded this anger
Though we are still a stranger
Blood stained flags now fly the coast
We have bled dry our host
Our feet covered with dust
We breath in the thick rust
and cover our faces in shame.
As things are set in backwards motion
copper legs collapse in vain
a gale blows in to collapse the ocean
the world trembles in my shame
what have I wrought, to the sky I scream
praying and dancing for rain
the sorrow I've bought, all for a dream
as this silk rusts away into chain
there's aught feeling left, just cold soulless steel
these machines intertwine with my breath
they're just like me, they wish to feel
This skin, these bones, this theft.
the substance that is you
replace my blood, push on through
like a mainline to my heart
you'll bleed me till I'm blue.
You're my violence, you're my doubt
the feelings I learned to live without
can you inject yourself again?
now you're all I'm all about.
and you're my poison, you're my bane
my disease, living off my pain
so put your devices to my brain
till I'm sick of your tirade, so sick I've gone insane!
smash your reflections in my skin, keep bending i'll break
rip and tear my rib-cage fake a heart to take!
without you I'd be sane within
but I'd be dead my friend
so inject yourself, let me breath again.
These hallways are to easy to pace by defconsmiley, literature
Literature
These hallways are to easy to pace
reality becomes perception
deception has become perspective
I draw a line at introspective
been there done that
get creative
hypocritical, lacking effort
sleep deprived, grab a beverage
clean the house, write a line
draw another cool design
lay about, think of her
scream and shout, maybe curse
a godless shrine I've built to burn
lie awake, toss and turn
sick of love, high on pain
work's become a constant strain
mop the floors, clean the drain
living life against the grain
bite my nails, check my phone
wonder where shes all alone
write a line, rub my eyes
body says I'm sleep deprived
one more line, one more line
I tell you b
one day I'll build a net
big enough to skim a wave
catch empty prays and promises
we've lost along the way
one day I'll grab the sky
hang till my arms give out
where I land is where I lie
and I will do so without doubt
one day I'll sew together
every piece of grass I see
my kingdom all for something better
these endeavors are so naive
one day I'll learn to tie my shoes
or lose my two front teeth
eat all my food, grow bigger than you
get rid of this car seat
one day this playground will be gone
the chalk, the swings, the slide
all the things that I thought wrong
are now distant memories to rhyme
one day, they say, its far aw
heres 31 lines, and I cant change your mind by defconsmiley, literature
Literature
heres 31 lines, and I cant change your mind
what do you do when you start to feel empty?
hollow? we're ass backwards, we as in us
us as in them, them as in they
like night as in day
like straight as in gay
or take as in pay.
there's nothing left to say
we settled for this way?
can we even call ourselves our name?
human, hu-man, hu.. hu.. human?
the type of alienation we cant stand?
the type of gratification we demand
instant
constant
relevant
re-dun-dant
simplified and hypocritical
yet
over complicated and statistical?
let the over educated head you wish you had on a swivel
just bleed itself of ignorance. shrivel.
don't die, just deflate
like glide as in skate
or
Let me start over
is this what we amount to?
martyrs of a dead world left sacrifice to a destitute
where our childhoods have missed every ladder only attracted to the chutes
till we find rock bottom and decided to learn to tie our shoes.
did you do it because they told you to?
or where you tired of the playground tripping you?
or how you ran and lost a shoe
afraid one day they'd chastise you, tell you look what you have to lose
but its just a shoe kid, keep runnin
they want you to turn around, they want you to stay
first its read your books, do your chores, watch what you say
then its 10 and 2, look for schools,should have got goo
Remember my smile
tooth for tooth
the one I beamed at you
whenever I said I was going to be something someday
I remember yours, I thought you were happy with ME
F o r M e
but all you were doing was faking
But I'm better now
where are you? I can see what I am now.
how can you say you were better? all that I am and I gave
YOU
my heart?
Now I can see now you're nothing but a shadow of my past
and as the sun sets on an old life, I lay my head upon my pillow
k n o w i n g
you'll be cast away with the rest of the darkness
with the rest I left behind in my steps
It will hurt when I'm gone, I'm saying th
Current Residence: Mazon Ill. Favourite genre of music: rock all of it Favourite style of art: abstract revoltion Favourite cartoon character: girr (invader zim) Personal Quote: DONT GIVE THAT LOCH NESS MONSTER NO TREE FITTY
red line chemistry <3
pull down your halo!
shine it in everyone's eyes
while the devil is running around
spreading your lies
go on and hide you'll never survive
how do you sleep at night?
got my labret in again! (correctly this time -.-) and hopefully my 6g jewelry for my ears comes in today.
then next week snake bites, tongue, and hopefully septum and starting my sleeve. not all in one week O.O but I'll be on the project haha.